This has been on my mind lately. My dad is going through it, his sister has got it pretty bad and I apparently have the predisposed gene to get in my future.
I’m leaning no because I wouldn’t want to make my child go through slowly watching their dad’s mind leave them and also potentially pass it on to them when they get older.
It’s thrown me for a loop since I always imagined myself having kids and I’m around that age now.
What do you think?
Edit: I just want to say that I did not expect the kind of response this post got. I’m grateful for all of your comments and the perspectives it’s allowed me to peak into.
I also should mention that were I to have children they would most certainly not be burdened by being the crutch of my own personal journey of accepting and loving who I am. That is work for me alone and I would never unload that responsibility onto those I love and especially those who I’d be raising.
As for my partner not wanting kids, I would never consider forcing or persuading them to raise a child when they know for certain it’s not in their cards. This is another element in how I’ve been navigating this question. I love her with everything I have and I can’t imagine us being apart and yet there is a pang that lingers of the father I assumed I would eventually become.
Anyway, thanks again for your thoughtful replies. They’ve helped so much especially since this is the first time I’ve voiced these thoughts.
I lost my grandmother and dad to Alzheimer’s. I feel like it’s probably in my future, as well. It’s a miserable disease that makes me question a lot of end-care practices and my wife & I are absolutely going to have some strategies in place, but to answer your question we already have 3 beautiful children that I can’t imagine life without (pretty sure there’s an Alzheimer’s joke in there, somewhere). I certainly don’t want to put them through what I saw with my Dad, but I also wouldn’t want to have missed out on all the wonderful experiences I’ve had/will have with them on account of a “what if”.
Ultimately, the choice is yours to make but you’re clearly putting a lot of worthwhile thought into it and I’m sure whatever you decide will be the best choice for you. I’m sorry about your dad & sister, and if you ever need someone to talk to I’m here.
That means a lot. Thank you. ❤️
There might be a cure for Alzheimer’s when you turn 65, medicine is advancing pretty rapidly now.
There might be a cure for Alzheimer’s when you turn 65, medicine is advancing pretty rapidly now.
Or even more likely by the time your (potential) kids get to that age.
There have been some major strides in treatments that slow and/or halt the progression of Alzheimer’s recently. I would think that in the next 30-50 years it would be a much more manageable disease.
I understand the concern of passing it down, but there is always adoption or sperm/egg donation, if you still wanted to be a parent. Honestly, nothing is guaranteed. You could die of something else long before Alzheimer’s could develop, or you could live to 100 in perfect health. Most of us will fall somewhere in between.
I wouldn’t let something like that stop you from starting a family if it’s what you really want in life.
Yes, my dad has been on medication that slows it, but it’s definitely taken a turn these past few months. We had to get the doctor to tell him to stop driving this month. It’s been really hard on him especially since he doesn’t know why and thinks it’s his fault and that it must be because he is simply too dumb enough to drive. It’s truly heartbreaking.
Also, that’s a good point that something entirely different could happen before Alzheimer’s.
I don’t have really any big fears in my life. I’m good with heights, I can run workshops and talk in front of hundreds of people. But I’ve always truly feared losing my mind since my psych 101 class in college. My plan is to go to a country that allows assisted suicide if I do end up getting it and can still make decisions in my right mind.
I think currently there are only two drugs that slow it down a bit (give maybe couple of years more) but are also very expensive and are quite dangerous (can cause brain swelling). So some improvements but still long way from a treatment.
You could get hit by a truck the day after having your child leaving them without a parent. Don’t let fear hold you back. No one lives without experiencing any suffering at all, it’s just part of life. If you love your children and care for them, then they’re already setup to have a much better life than most will.
Of course I would. Even if I knew I’m getting it in 10 years after having kids… Because I want to make sure they learn from the person (me) who loves them more than himself. I want them to prepared for the crazy ideas out there. I want to raise them with love. I want to tell them the truth about the lies that unfortunately so many people are believing. I want to prepare them to understand the life, and face when they have to.
Of course, who else is going to take care of me when I have Alzheimer’s?
Seriously, my mom died of Alzheimer’s, but that doesn’t necessarily mean I’m going to get it. And we’re not talking about a disease that someone is going to suffer from their whole lives. If you had your kids at 25, they’d be 40 when you got Alzheimer’s.
It’s a completely shitty disease, especially for the family, but you’re going to die of something, and some of the options are worse still.
I’ve had a pretty tough time with our kid and our test has always been.
If that happened today, would I wish she wasn’t here. So far the answer is always an unresounding no.
I have a friend who suffers from severe depression, inherited from his parents, and he definitely blames them for deciding to have kids when he feels they should have known what hell he would suffer for it.
But this is completely different. You have plenty of time to raise your kids before it affects you, if it ever does. If they inherit the predisposition, they have plenty of time to lead amazing lives before it strikes. It’s a miserable thing that may or may not happen towards the end of life but we all have to deal with miserable things.
You can’t live your life in a way that avoids all of those miserable things. I have another friend who spends a quite unreasonable amount of mental energy trying to avoid bad consequences and it is honestly ridiculous how many much worse things that happen as a result.
That said, you say elsewhere that your partner does not want kids. You have to decide whether the relationship is strong enough to accept that. Are you looking for reasons why you should feel happy about it? Do you have a burning desire for children or is it just something that you assumed would happen because that’s how it works for most people?
Big decisions to make. But none of them have a whole lot to do with Alzheimer’s. If you do have kids, and you treat them well, they’re going to be devastated no matter when you die, or what kills you. That’s not a reason to deny them, or you, the joy that makes it so devastating. Grief is the price we pay for love.
Parental love might or might not be something you want or need in your life. That’s a question only you can answer.
Thank you for this. Yes, that’s part of question for me. Does always imagining having them mean I really want them?
I also think one of the things I fear about not having kids is the work it will take to really accept and love myself. I feel like kids can substitute that kind of work in a lot of people. Without them though I’m really faced with myself.
That’s a really heavy burden to place on a child. Sure when they’re really young you’ll be the centre of their universe. A superhero that can do no wrong. But eventually they will grow up, and become their own people. That process often involves outright rejecting you and being really hurtful. If you have a fragile sense of self I’m not sure raising teenagers will make you feel any better, they can be godamn mean.
Also your kids should NEVER be responsible for your mental health and self esteem. It’s incredibly unhealthy and you will likely end up raising broken adults because of it. Honestly, save yourself and your potential future chlldren the trauma and heartache and do the work it takes to deal with your issues. It will be hard, but believe me it’s a piece of cake compared to the pain you’d be setting yourself up for later.
Oh my gosh, I truly appreciate your post and it has made me think about my grandma, etc, but I have to comment here as a mom of grown children: children take a very personal passion and work that can at times be super affirming, but being a parent WILL NOT help you accept and love yourself!!!
The pitfalls are the same as in any meaningful effort and the importance will magnify the failures as much or more than the successes.
If I’m 64? No way. If I’m 30? I don’t see why not.
Hell No. why hand that crap on to someone else. If I want kids I’d adopt.
I have strictly instructed my family, including my wife, that if I ever develop alzheimers I want to be euthanized. If I am sufficiently lucid at the point of diagnosis I will have no problem overdosing on something and going out in peace.
I’ve come up with the idea of an annual test of basic facts and current events (very basic). Once I get to the point where I can’t pass this test with flying colors, off me and launch my corpse into the ocean via trebuchet plz. Game over. Not interested in seeing where the rest of that ride goes. Seen it many times before with family members and I don’t like it.
Problem is there’s a catch 22. If you’re not lucid enough to answer those questions, you’re not lucid enough side whether you live or die from a legal standpoint.
Every law I know that allows euthanasia requires that the person have a terminal illness and enough mental faculties to make the decision. You run the risk of a loved one getting tried for murder if you ask them to give you the drugs and you are not competent to make the decision yourself.
With diseases like this you get better and worse days. What one should do is do the test daily and track it. If you see gaps in the test results (like you see that last 2 days you didn’t take the test but don’t remember why, or failed the test yesterday) you end it. At this point it’s clear that the next step will no not knowing where you are at all so there’s no point at prelonging it. You should nitrogen gas ready somewhere.
