I remeber it happening. There was no backdoor. It was during that time there was a push to put backdoors or weaken public encryption in the name of national security. Truceypt didnt want to play and were threatened with possible legal action. Rather than fight it they decided to stop the project.

Musical theory has taken quite a dive these days. I dont even think most songs have bridges or codas… i dont think id do a musician in the past dirty like that.

Asd diagnosis might help a few things here. Seems like you might have a bit of difficulty being able to express your emotions appropriately. I get it, I just got out of a relationship and it’s daunting to be on your own. And to do it for any extended period of time is not a good place to be. People need to have people they love trust and feel that in return. My advice is always practice honesty and vulnerability. Never put yourself in danger but be honest (not creepy) with your intentions and accepting rejection as a possibility is something that will happen but maybe you can talk to your professional support network about it and work on that rejection fear.