Melt it and cast again?

Very well said. I have a little daughter and I’m 100% certain I’m far from the perfect father. However, a lot, maybe the majority of my thoughts revolve around her and I’m trying to balance preparing her for the future, her wellbeing, make her happy (often the former two don’t make her happy, e.g. eating vegetables) and keep myself sane, healthy and at least a bit happy. There’s also my wife and our marriage which also needs attention.

What I’m trying to say is that being a father isn’t easy and there’s no manual for it since it’s extremely individual.

Maybe your father wasn’t really happy for a long time and kind of waited (consciously or unconsciously) until you and your sister grew up and then turned up the selfishness and tried to satisfy his needs.

It’s almost unbelievable how much my world changed by having a child. Indeed the center of the universe shifted and I became a satellite instead of the center piece.

And it’s still weird for me because I didn’t even know I could feel so much love. I don’t actually understand it because especially in the beginning a baby doesn’t really do anything positive for you except for totally depending on you and looking cute. Besides that extreme sleep deprivation (she had a lot of tummy aches as baby), torture by loud crying all day long, causing lots of worries, no more time for friends and also costing quite a lot of money.

I don’t mean this in a negative way. I just mean without this sudden feeling of total unconditional love babies probably wouldn’t survive. She’s 4 years now and it’s still a struggle but I love her to bits and would still give everything. The game has changed though and now she tells me what she wants while I know that not everything she wants is good for her and sometimes I have to force her to do things she absolutely doesn’t want for her own good…

My little daughter thinks I’m an adult and calls me daddy

You can kill anyone by thinking of it but it’s only works on people you love.

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I forgot the names but there are a few amazing X-COM / UFO / Terror from the deep mods!

I understand. While I was never truly suicidal I often wished for my situation to be just over and to disappear. So I think I get the people who make those “quick” decisions like jumping in front of a train, from a height or drive the car into a wall or something.

However, there also seem to be suicidal people who make elaborate plans with a whole lot of preparation and with seemingly a big focus on visibility and messaging. For those, I could imagine going after a crime Syndicate and things like that.

Yet, while I was writing this I realized these people with a death wish but also aggression and a wish to punish others are probably mass shooters and terrorists…

Slightly off topic but I often wondered why people who want to commit suicide don’t start a fight against organized crime or some other nasty opponent.

Yes but at least for me I’m fine for a week or two afterwards.

Recurring, almost obsessive thoughts about certain acts and situations. Vivid imagination of how the body feels during the act. Both to a level where your objectives and priorities are narrowed down to achieving these feelings / situations / acts IRL. Inner tension that can only be relieved by reaching this goal.

Thank you, I wasn’t aware

I wear glasses as anyways and I’d love a heads up display. Augmented reality where I could basically spawn full sized displays anywhere for work would be nice too. I’d probably need a device to control it somehow too.

However, I wouldn’t want them from Google, Apple, Meta or any of the other large corporations. Not coupled with their walled gardens, their subscriptions, their EULAs and terms and conditions and “updates” I didn’t ask for.

I just want the hardware and a driver for Linux. Connect the glasses via WiFi to my own computer and run the applications on this computer. If I want to use the glasses outside of my home, I would set up a VPN and use my phone to create a WiFi hotspot.

However, I’m pretty sure nobody is going to build it like that, so I’ll never have smart glasses. Which is fine.

I hope to stumble upon the peaches of immortality over day…

NYC and surroundings

A little less, less speed means less energy and more time for others to react

What about the werewolves?

Ah, very cool. Maybe I’ll visit again once the current presidency ends. If that’s ever going to be the case.

Noted

For the people who need the adrenaline rush we could reduce the driving speed on the Autobahn but add something dangerous to the car. Maybe add a random chance for the airbag to activate or tires to explode.