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I realized that people didn’t really give a shit about me and just used me for my skills. I was always there for them when they needed me, but when I asked them for anything they were always busy or had some excuse. I started using the same excuses on them and they all disappeared almost immediately.
I still help people of course: some close friends, some colleagues, my students, but I no longer show myself to be competent in certain things so I can avoid parasites.
I do have hobbies and enjoy them, but I tend to hide everything from them, even meaningless things.
What pisses me off mostly is how much I missed out on when I was younger for her stupid ideas, things like “you want a wife from your city”, “but she’s black!” (yes, I’m into black women), “he’s gay, if you go out with him everyone will think you’re gay”, “the trip is too long”, shit like that…
Was your whole plan about having a family in your 20s? If not, then I don’t see how the lack of a significant other matters. What career plans do you have? What interests do you have? Also, keep in mind that validation should come from within, you shouldn’t let anyone (or their absence) define how you feel about yourself.
Myself, I’m my own cockblocker 😅
I’d say I have 3 problems:
- I have zero game, can’t read signals, don’t know how to appear interesting, all that stuff
- Despite being 32, I still don’t know what I want, my sexuality is very fluid, so one day I may be super attracted to a girl, and 3 days later I may not care enough to even text her
- I don’t put myself out enough, I don’t want to use dating apps but I also don’t want to visit places where I get in contact with a lot of people because I get anxious
When I was around 12, I was learning about overclocking, and accidentally killed my dad’s graphic card, an Nvidia FX 5900.
I vividly remember launching The Sims 2 to test my overclock, when suddenly the screen started turning on and off (the video driver was probably crashing and restarting), and after I reset the PC, there were 2 green lines on the screen and XP was stuck in 640x480 16 colors because not even the basic display driver was able to load.
My dad was mad obviously because it was an expensive card, the damage wasn’t covered by the warranty, and he was into gaming too at the time. I was stuck with integrated graphics for about a month while we waited for the geforce 6000 series to come out.
I was so scared of overclocking after this happened, I didn’t try it again until a few years later years later when I had my own computer (and killed another card, a 9800GX2).
- Can’t use my phone for more than 10 minutes because it makes my eyes hurt
- Understanding the mechanics of new games feels harder than it used to be
- Can’t easily remember the names of characters in a game/movie I’m watching
- Can’t remember the names of functions for programming languages I’ve learned recently, always need to keep the documentation handy
- I find it absolutely counterintuitive to use “modern” functions in programming like lambdas (and functional programming in general can’t get into my head)
- I almost always HATE changes in the OS and programs I use, while I used to love beta-testing stuff
- Can’t get into new hobbies and interests
- Still listen to the same genres I used to listen to 10 years ago
- 2019 feels like a few months ago, not half a decade ago
- Getting worse and worse at rhythm games
I’m 33.
It gets better bro.
I’m 33 and I was in a worse situation:
- Started getting depressed in 2011 at the age of 20
- Graduated in CS in 2016, super late, but with top grades
- Started working as a software developer, hated it
- For a few years I switched between working in a local computer shop and uni to get a master’s degree
- Again, I graduated super late in 2021 but with top grades
- Still hated working as a developer and now hated working as a technician too
- At the end of 2021, I got a call from my old high school, they needed someone to teach programming
- Decide to give it a try, absolutely love it
- Suddenly, depression is gone and I have a reason to get up in the morning
- A 10 year old nightmare is over, still single though
Power Francers - Pompo nelle Casse
It’s a very stupid song with lyrics that make no sense and are kinda hedonistic, and I hated it when it came out in 2010 because I felt that it somehow “promoted” that lifestyle, but it eventually grew on me and it brings me back to simpler times, now I get the irony of that song.
I’d say I’m above average but not a genius, IQ professionally tested at 117.
I have decent logic skills, spatial awareness, but I really think I lack social skills, I have a very hard time picking up social cues and that kind of stuff. That’s something an IQ test can’t measure and it’s my weakest spot.
In 2018, I had an infection and I basically couldn’t eat or drink almost anything without throwing up, even a sip od water would make me sick for hours. The antibiotics made it even worse.
I lost over 15kg in 2 weeks, I legit thought I was going to die. It took almost 2 years before I could eat normally again.
I may be weird but I use both Ark (default archiver in KDE) and 7-zip in wine. The reason is that 7-zip has better compatibility with some file formats but most importantly, Ark can’t extract files with unicode file names from some archive formats (including tar!). This problem has been known for years and affect many other linux archivers, it’s a pain in the ass.
Check the SMART status. If you’re using KDE you can install plasma-disks which nicely integrates into it and warns you of potential failures.
This won’t predict controller failures of course, those are generally unpredictable, but sometimes SSD controllers that are about to fail will show massive lag spikes or straight up disconnect while you’re using them, if that happens back up your stuff immediately.
Another sign of early failure is extremely slow write speeds. All SSDs slow down a bit after a while once the cache is full, but if you see speeds slower than a mechanical drive, the memory is dying.
Very rarely, you’ll see uncorrectable errors like being unable to open a file, a corrupt file system or files with corrupted chunks (usually 4kb blocks of zeros). If that happens it’s already too late.
Also, the health status of a drive only indicates how worn the memory is, don’t expect the drive to last until it gets to 0%, it’s rare to even get to 60%.
If you only have 8gb you’re probably swapping a lot, depends on what you do with your PC.
Anyway, to set up zram the easiest way is to try this: https://github.com/systemd/zram-generator/tree/main Also, take a look at the zram page on the arch wiki, even if you’re not using arch it’s very well made: https://wiki.archlinux.org/title/Zram
I generally wouldn’t recommend this, especially if you’re using a cheaper SSD without cache or with QLC memory.
As you already know, cells on an SSD have limited write cycles (as low as 700 for QLC memory) and things like TRIM and wear leveling make sure that your SSD wears uniformly, but on cheaper SSDs the endurance is so low that without cache you will run into wearing issues in a few years of regular use or a few months if you’re using it a lot or with swap enabled. I have seen it first hand many times working in a repair shop.
Keep in mind that endurance is not just a number of terabytes written that will cause your drive to suddenly switch to read-only mode, before it fails it will usually slow down to the point of making your PC unusable, I’ve seen SSDs write as slow as 9MB/s (specifically a Yucun drive from 2018 with TLC memory and no cache), it’s not defective it just has to do a lot of error correction during writes.
Also, another issue that plagues cheap SSDs is that their controllers usually die well before the memory does, keep that in mind when choosing an SSD because this usually happens without early signs of failure or SMART errors.
So in general, unless your PC has a lot of RAM and that swap area will rarely be used, don’t use swap and use zram instead (or just buy more RAM?).
As a developer, I use LLMs as sort of a search engine, I ask things like how to use a certain function, or how to fix a build error. I try to avoid asking for code because often the generated code doesn’t work or uses made up or deprecated functions.
As a teacher, I use it to generate data for exercises, they’re especially useful for populating databases and generating text files in a certain format that need to be parsed. I tried asking for ideas for new exercises but they always suck.